[ there's still so much to say, but qi fang feels like they've both earned some peace for now. it's getting chillier as the night passes, but removing himself from reki's arms seems like far too much torture to have to go through. ]
This is already so much.
[ he tips his face up, feeling okay enough now to finally meet his boyfriend's eyes. ]
[ yeah, nobody's going anywhere, not a chance. after everything, it's nice just to be tangled up like this, trading gazes as reki carefully frames qi fang's face in his hands and strokes over his cheek. impossible not to smile, when they're this close and qi fang looks so beautiful in the fading light. ]
[ this time, he doesn't hesitate to take the kiss he so desperately wants. leaning in and up, sealing his lips over reki's to claim them again and again and once more for good luck. ]
So fucking glad you came. Never listen to me if I say I don't want you to, okay? I'd be full of shit.
[ maybe it's not been flawless, but it's not like they're practiced. not like they both don't kind of hate it, too, but reki's learning it's not so bad when it's them. ]
[ they're as close as they can be, but reki's lifting his head to glance at qi fang, trying to gauge his reaction. it still feels a little like prying to ask outright, but maybe he needs to get over that instinct too. ]
[ he scratches at his chin for a moment in thought, that hand eventually drifting down to settle over the back of reki's neck. ]
But who knows how long that'll last, too. [ after all, when he was much younger, he'd thought his parents were happy. turns out that customer service smile of his just runs in the family. ]
[ qi fang can immediately sense the shift in mood, and he's only got a second to mentally kick himself in the face for it before he scrambles for damage control. ]
Yeah but — I mean they probably won't. Like I said, half the time they forget to do the parent stuff. And even if they didn't, I'm still way too young...
Hey hey... Even if they did, I'm not going anywhere.
[ maybe it's foolish or risky to make such claims now, when there's likely no need for it until well into the future but — he doesn't like the way reki's holding on to him so tight right now, knowing where it's coming from. ]
I'm the bad son, remember? That means I get to not listen to their shit.
[ honestly, what's one more anxiety added to the trove? it's barely even noticeable until qi fang speaks up, which makes reki smile no matter how much he's not in the mood for it. ]
Oh yeah. You're the worst of the worst.
[ what worries him is that qi fang is good, and unlike him, this stuff seems to matter. he sinks his fingers into qi fang's hair with a sigh. ]
It's a shitty thing to think about, but it won't be as shitty if we deal with it together, right?
[ the as long as we're still together then left unspoken, of course. ]
[ you never know, reki... sometimes qi fang feels like he's one more stepford smile away from chopping up some bodies and tossing them into the basement... but who knows how much of that is just your regular ol' teenage angst. ]
Nah. It'll be fine. We'll weather it out together, we always do.
[ haven't even been together for a year and here he is acting like they're decades into this thing. but none of that stops him from speaking with utmost confidence. they've got this for sure. they have to. ]
[ trust reki's already worried about that too and come up with a contingency for how they'll dispose of the evidence. ride or die, there's no in between here. ]
That's all that matters, then. Not just with this, like...
[ not to keep harping on this, but he is fresh off a whole day of not knowing what kind of cozy hell his better half's been going through all alone. ]
[ at least, he knows that now. more and more he's coming to regret reverting back to his old ways, trying to wade through this alone. he palms the side of reki's face, thumb sweeping across a cheek like he's holding something precious — and he is. reki is his just like he is reki's. this ride or die thing... it's pretty awesome. ]
I've got yours too, okay? Whatever happens, we'll get through it together.
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This is already so much.
[ he tips his face up, feeling okay enough now to finally meet his boyfriend's eyes. ]
Seriously.
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I'm just happy to be here with you.
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So fucking glad you came. Never listen to me if I say I don't want you to, okay? I'd be full of shit.
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I think our thing works best if neither of us listen to each other honestly.
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Shit. Or we could actually be better at talking.
[ but maybe that's too tall an order for a pair of stupid kids like them. ]
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[ maybe it's not been flawless, but it's not like they're practiced. not like they both don't kind of hate it, too, but reki's learning it's not so bad when it's them. ]
I'm gonna try way harder too.
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[ it feels a little like an understatement. given what a disaster he can be at times, he's surprised there hasn't been more fuck ups. ]
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[ things had seemed so hopeless in the beginning, but now he has to smile, thinking of all the work they've done together. ]
Like maybe we'll always make it.
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Yeah. Feels like it, huh?
[ he passed a hand along reki's back, absently pulling him closer still. ]
He's, uh. Getting married. My brother. Managed to find someone as perfect as him. That's why he's here for so long, so we could meet her.
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[ they're as close as they can be, but reki's lifting his head to glance at qi fang, trying to gauge his reaction. it still feels a little like prying to ask outright, but maybe he needs to get over that instinct too. ]
You met her today?
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Mom and dad are all over her, but considering he's right on track with everything I doubt they even tried to find anything wrong with her.
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[ reki flashes him a wry little smile. he only has the one overbearing parent, but it's enough for him to learn the rhythm of these sorts of things. ]
Do they look happy?
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[ he scratches at his chin for a moment in thought, that hand eventually drifting down to settle over the back of reki's neck. ]
But who knows how long that'll last, too. [ after all, when he was much younger, he'd thought his parents were happy. turns out that customer service smile of his just runs in the family. ]
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At least you're not old enough for them to start getting on your case about that.
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Thank fuck for that. Can you imagine?
[ he shudders, unconsciously curling his arms around reki in response. ]
I wouldn't put it past my parents to try and arrange something, too... They're outdated like that.
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What, really?
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Yeah but — I mean they probably won't. Like I said, half the time they forget to do the parent stuff. And even if they didn't, I'm still way too young...
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Yeah, right. Guess so.
[ still doesn't do anything for the way reki's grasp on him tightens like someone means to come and take him away now. ]
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Hey hey... Even if they did, I'm not going anywhere.
[ maybe it's foolish or risky to make such claims now, when there's likely no need for it until well into the future but — he doesn't like the way reki's holding on to him so tight right now, knowing where it's coming from. ]
I'm the bad son, remember? That means I get to not listen to their shit.
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Oh yeah. You're the worst of the worst.
[ what worries him is that qi fang is good, and unlike him, this stuff seems to matter. he sinks his fingers into qi fang's hair with a sigh. ]
It's a shitty thing to think about, but it won't be as shitty if we deal with it together, right?
[ the as long as we're still together then left unspoken, of course. ]
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Nah. It'll be fine. We'll weather it out together, we always do.
[ haven't even been together for a year and here he is acting like they're decades into this thing. but none of that stops him from speaking with utmost confidence. they've got this for sure. they have to. ]
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That's all that matters, then. Not just with this, like...
[ not to keep harping on this, but he is fresh off a whole day of not knowing what kind of cozy hell his better half's been going through all alone. ]
Whatever happens, I've always got your back.
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...I know.
[ at least, he knows that now. more and more he's coming to regret reverting back to his old ways, trying to wade through this alone. he palms the side of reki's face, thumb sweeping across a cheek like he's holding something precious — and he is. reki is his just like he is reki's. this ride or die thing... it's pretty awesome. ]
I've got yours too, okay? Whatever happens, we'll get through it together.